Making so many changes in my life has proved to be a challenge, but I am
not going to allow a few storms to stop me from making the progress I
desire! I owe it to myself and to my daughter to be the best person that
I can be. That means getting rid of negativity, being healthier, and
being happier! I injured my Achilles Tendon Tuesday during my work out.
So I have had to work on resting it some so it will heal properly. I
also am dealing with the crashing that comes along with cutting sugar
and caffeine out of your diet. I decided to cut it out cold turkey, I
seem to do better this way. It is really difficult to work out with a
migraine and utter exhaustion; due to these factors I have decided to
continue to focus very strongly on my nutrition goals for now and start
strong on my work out next week. I do not want to do so much at once
that I feel over whelmed and just quit. My husband does not make
trying to live a healthier lifestyle easy! He keeps tempting me with
donuts, soda's and all of the restaurants he knows I love. I told him
last night that I need him to be my number one supporter, not my largest
speed bump. I unfortunately LOVE food and love cooking... I am just
having to learn to LOVE healthier foods! I will treat myself every 2
weeks for being so dedicated, but I will not completely blow it on that
day. I have to regain my self control. That is why I am in the place I
am in in the first place! I know I have a long road ahead of me,
and this is a lifestyle change, not just a crash diet. I am doing this
for me and for my daughter. I will do ANYTHING for my little girl, and
so I know I will be successful. I just have to stay focused! So for now I am going to stay strong, and not give into
temptation. I am going to be fit and healthy and I am going to be
happy!
Today is my first day being really serious about what I am eating and working out. The weekend was so busy it was really difficult to keep up with everything I ate and all of my activities. I am using myfitnesspal.com to track my food diary and exercise. My mood today is definitely more positive than it has been. I am determined I am going to be more healthy and I am going to make sure that I am doing everything I can to ensure good health and weight loss. I had a great weekend where I did a lot of walking outdoors so I know that has helped get me motivated to keep moving. For breakfast I had a Yoplait low fat yogurt. Yogurt is a great option because it has you calcium, protein, not too much fat, and fairly low calorie also. For lunch I had a small Gala apple, 1 oz of cheddar cheese and my tuna salad:
The recipe and nutritional information:
1 6.4oz pouch of chunk light tuna
1 tbs of Kraft Mayonnaise
2 oz of Mt. Olive Hot Dill Pickles
2 oz of Diced Red Onion
*****This makes 2 servings*****
Calories: 146 Fat: 6g. Carbs: 4 Protein: 21
Very Healthy and Yummy! I chose to use real mayonnaise because I do not like the after taste of the low fat mayonnaise and as long as you just use a little it is not bad. For dinner I am debating on a grilled chicken salad with low fat italian dressing or a cup of chili. I am very excited about my lifestyle change. Thank you all for your encouragement I am very blessed!
As a teenager I battled eating disorders. At a size 7 I thought I was huge. All of my friends were size zeros and
they could share clothes, but I couldn't so I thought that meant I was
fat. I went from starving myself for weeks to binge eating junk food and
hiding it. The older I got the more problems I had with self esteem and
depression. Once I graduated high school and went to college the weight
started to slowly creep on. I look back at pictures from when I THOUGHT
I was fat and I laugh wishing I could be that size again. Since I had
my a swings with my bipolar seem to be getting worse. I know that some
of that is side effects of having the IUD taken out which can take
several weeks to go back to normal, but I am tired of excuses.
What brought all of this on this morning is I was looking through some
pictures of this past weekend. We had a birthday party for a close
friends little girl we went to. There were several pictures of me and I
look AWFUL. I have never been this big in my entire life! Even at 9
months pregnant I was not this size. I started thinking, "How did I get
to this point?". I started thinking of the medication, the IUD, the
stress, family history and all the other factors. Finally I said, that
is it, no more excuses. I keep saying I want to start training again and
working out again and eating like I should, but it is time I put my
thoughts into actions. My daughter deserves a healthy mommy who has the
energy to play with her. She deserves a mommy who will grow old and get
to watch her grow up, and she deserves a mommy who will teach her
healthy eating habits now while she is young.
I have to do
something and do it now. I am going to continue to blog since it is a
healthy way of getting my feelings out there. I am going to cut back on
the time I spend on the computer as a whole however and focus more on a
healthier life style. I am going to do this for my daughter, but also
for myself. I need to get back to loving myself. I need to be the woman I
know I am deep down, and it is time to bring out my inner fighter. I am
going to look into getting some counseling along the way, and I am
going to talk to my doctor as well to make sure I approach this the
right way. I am tired of making excuses for myself. I am the only one
who can control my life, and it is time that I take control. I am not
getting any younger, and my daughter is growing up faster than I ever
imagined. I know I have a couple of good friends. I just hope that my
family and friends will be the support that I need them to be.
